What I want to say.

I would sit down, ask him to sit down also. I would face him, and grab his hands. I know he will flinch a little at first, but then he would take mine. I know I would attempt to keep my eyes from flooding.. but instead the run. I would ignore the fact that I'm crying. "Hey-" He would try to say. "Please let me talk." I would interrupt. "What I want to say is how, I can't stand to life without out you. I miss you. I don't know if you miss me too but I really do miss you. I think of you all the time, from the glorious first kiss to the regretting last one. I really can't live and do this without you." He would stare into my eyes, I know they will start to water. I would continue," I don't know if you can feel what I feel.. I feel alone and cold without you,But oh, when I'm with you my world is never disappointing and full of glorious surprises. You made a mark on me.. and now you can't leave. You have to stay. Stay with me.. forever."

In my dream he would say yes, and we would be happy as long as we were with each other. And that nothing could ever get between us ever again. But like I said.. it was a dream. Who knows what will happen.. maybe tomorrow I would talk to him... maybe not. I have a feeling that I won't here from him in a while. Will I pack up my bags and go along by myself and onto another adventure? Who knows..

Broken heart

You didn't call, I called, and you answered. Your phone wasn't off like you said. I didn't ask for explanation, I just asked if you didn't want to talk to me.. you claim that you were sick and busy, like nothing ever happened. I told you that you scared me, which begged the question "why?" that you asked. I said, "Because I didn't hear you from you in a while.." I waited a while, impatiently to get an answer, but instead i got messages from two other guys.. two other guys that I did not love like the other. I waited some more. He said his phone broke and it was off, and that he would be off to bed. He was avoiding me... what could I do? I couldn't ask anymore questions, I would seem like a crazy-attached person. I just said goodnight as as well and prayed that everything would turn out great like before. He once said he loved me and that he cared for me... and that I was good for him and he was good for me. Well we will see what tomorrow brings, Right? There's nothing we can do now, just wait.

Longing for a call..

Yet another day has past, without words from your deep voice, or messages delivering your heart to me. I still think of the two times we were together and the thousands of messages we sent, Butterflies still flurry in my stomach. At the same time, its very sickening. I hope that you miss me the way I miss you and longing to see me like I do you. I hope your okay, and no one or no thing has harmed you.. even though my heart is crushed because of your surprising absence, I still love you. And I'm still sitting by the phone.

I'll tell the earth, "Thanks for the skin, thanks for the teeth, thanks for the bone." Though I know slowly give it back, I still appreciate the loan.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to all!! Hope you have a good one, and may God bless all! :)

Your kiss...

I'm still thinking of that kiss you gave me from long ago, It still lingers on my lips with a tingling feeling, and your sweet smell I still think of brings my tummy into a butterfly catcher. You say that you care about me, but it doesn't seem that way, I haven't heard from you in a while, You didn't give me a heads up of your worst-timing of leaving. It was Christmas day, and I was hoping to be with you. I think I'm right, I think you don't care, and your probably off seeing someone else..