Yeah sure you gave us what we wanted, just to shut us up, or thats how I see it. Because of your haunting past, you seemed to afraid to interact with us like mothers should, and because you were too busy doing things that you should of done 25 years ago. "But hey whatever", I would always think, "my dads not here, no biggie, you dont have to be eather."
I felt like I had to be very apoligetic my whole life because of how hard you stuggled to keep the lights on and food on the table for me and my sister. For many years, I thought that, if I'd go, as in leave the world, things would be so much better for you, I'd be out of everyones hair, and things would be just wonderful. But then I realize, I'd be leaving the most importaint person in my life, to suffer alone, my sister. Once I realize I just bite my tounge, shut up and try to choose my words wizely when you ask me questions.